Just Mollie and Me.... and baby makes three...

There comes a point in every boy's life when he must put aside childish things and become a man. For some guys it happens later in life than others. We love our fast cars, our video games, and our mint condition, limited edition, new-in-box Star Wars action figures. For me the point when I realized I had to be something more than what I currently am occurred at 5:30 a.m. Sunday, January 31. It was at that point that Mollie told me she had "a baby in her belly."
Now I know humanity has been reproducing for millions of years. And I know all the cool couples have had a baby or more; Jamie and Kelly, Ryan and Brandy, Gabe and Kim, Colt and Jen, Morgan and Toad, etc., et al. However, at no point does anything that anyone tells you prepare you for the realization that you, who can barely take care of yourself, who still eats cereal with marshmellows and watches Saturday morning cartoons, is going to be responsible for a tiny, fragile, adorable human life. AHH!!!

Scary, right? That's not even the half of it. Since the speck first announced "I'm here! I'm here! I'm here!" I've been flooded by a deluge of varying emotions that have threatened to spill over several times. Fear; will I be a good daddy? Happiness; I'm going to have a baby! Nauseated (okay so this is less emotion, more physical reaction but m'eh); I'm not ready for this *bleck*.Excitement; WAHOO! Overwhelming contentment complete with stupid grin; I just made a baby. And that was just the first 5 minutes It really is an absolutely amazing feeling knowing that you played a part in the propagation of the species; the circle of life. 


So at the moment we are 13+ weeks into the pregnancy. I waited for awhile to announce it here because we wanted to make sure everything was okay. If I didn't call and tell you personally don't take it personally. Anyway, I wanted to give a quick recap of what Mollie and I have been going through over the past few weeks to get you up to speed.


January 31: Though I find it odd to pee on a stuck, Mollie passed her pregnancy test with flying colors. I freaked out a little bit.


February: I was on a freaky roller coaster of emotion mainly because not having health insurance and expecting a baby is a scary prospect. But overall I was pretty happy.


March 1: Mollie and I drove an hour in snowy/rainy conditions to get to the midwife offices in Irwin because we wouldn't feel right having anyone other than Aunt Gretchen delivering our little bundle of joy. The mentioned things looked a bit big for 8 weeks. I had a many anxiety attack as thoughts of twins danced in my head.


March 19: I earned a full-time position with my company. Hooray for health insurance!


March 31: Back to Irwin. Gretchen only heard one, strong, fast heart beat. The implications make my anxiety levels drop to the point where I can actually write this blog.


I do not know if I am ready to be parent. I don't know if anyone is ever really ready. But what I do know is that Mollie and I love each other. And I know that both of our families will offer love and suppport as our baby makes his or her debut in this world. I truly believe that this may be the beginning of our greatest adventure ever, adventures in parenthood, and I cannot wait to meet our baby in October.